Lately I have been forgoing the daily glass of wine in favor of saving cash.  In doing so I have learned two very important things….

1) I am not an alcoholic!  I can go without alcohol and not actually need it…ok, so on Friday’s I do look forward to sitting in a bar w/M and having a couple of drinks but that is really about the social aspects more than anything.  He’s fun to drink with and fun to talk to so of course I look forward to the time I spend with him…but I love when we sit on his back porch with our morning coffee just as much so really, it’s not about the alcohol.  In fact, since I have slowed down my drinking (it really was out of control in Atlanta as well as when I lived with my friend in Salem and the two of us would drink several glasses every evening) I am to the point where I no longer like having more than one to two glasses of wine or two to three beers.  I don’t like the feeling of more than a light buzz…I’m not saying that I will never be drunk again…it happens. However, I think I have officially outgrown the over-consumption of alcohol…for the most part.

2) HOWEVER (yes of course there is a but)…I have been very dissatisfied after dinner lately. Not that the food is less delicious. In fact, I would say that lately I have been enjoying the results of my time spent cooking more than ever.  There just always seemed to be something missing, that despite having had plenty to eat with the standard inclusion of grains, proteins and veggies and feeling full I still wanted…something…but I didn’t know exactly what I was longing for.  Two days ago I realized…its the wine thats missing!  Not so much because it enhances the flavor of the food…food is a many splendored thing and if its good it needs no help so to speak, but wine gives a meal, even pizza or hamburgers, a little something special, a little sophistication.  Most of all though, I love the end of the meal when the plate is in the sink and the food is gone but I still have another ounce or two of wine to sit and savor while reading my book or watching a bit of a movie.  Ten minutes of my day to relax with one of my absolute favorite foods (for, yes, wine is food).  So I have determined that wine is just as important a purchase in my weekly grocery budget as bread and milk and even if I have to eat nothing but eggs and apples the last two days of the week because I have spent all my food money up, I will have wine!